I thought I would compile a short list of the weird thoughts or things that I do now that I definitely did not do pre-baby…
1. Whoever said there is no use crying over spilled milk has clearly never pumped. I have now cried three times because of this, with the most recent being when I lost almost 5 ounces as I tried to pour it into a storage bag. All over my kitchen floor. I wept and wanted to punch somebody. So sir, your saying can suck it and yes, I will cry over spilled milk.
2. When I drive alone now, a rare occurrence, I blast my music and have all the windows down, even when it is freezing. I usually have to regulate the temp pretty well when Arlie is in the car, but man, I am always hot now (thanks pregnancy for this gift that keeps on giving) and having to make sure that I don’t freeze my child is pretty important.
3. All commercials with a baby or children in it are now tear inducing. I am not a crier, I swear. But now I am.
4. Watching Disney shows is now a pastime of mine. Sofia the first is spectacular. Judge me, my kid watches some television. To be fair, she only actually watches when there is some sort of music playing on the TV. Otherwise she has absolutely no interest.
5. You never realize how awesome sleep is until you get more than three hours in a row. And then your body stages a revolt because it remembers exactly how awesome sleep is and you feel even more tired than you do on a night when you get three hours total.
6. Christmas is now the coolest holiday ever. I seriously can’t wait to have this experience with Arlie. She will have NO idea what is going on but I just can’t wait for her to see everything. I loved it before, but I LOOOOVEEEE it now!
7. The seriousness of illnesses and injuries scares the crap out of me. I hate it when she falls or she bangs her head, or even when she has a stuffy nose. It honestly keeps me up at night sometimes. This is not something I even gave a second though to prior to Arlie.
8. This is a big one. I sincerely love my dogs, but in no way does that love compare at all to how much I love Arlie. In fact, at this point I could take or leave one of my dogs. The other one is still amazing (Mason, my gentleman) and I love that he and Arlie are besties, but man, taking care of the dogs on top of the baby is awful. I’ve seriously considered not getting another dog ever again. Lets be serious though, I can’t really live without a dog, so that’s unlikely to be my reality. But never again will I compare the love of my dogs to that of the love of my kids. Not the same at all!
9. I officially like dressing Arlie up in some girlier outfits. Not dresses, no way. But some of the adorable tomboyish pants and shirts. I even got her a 49’ers outfit to wear with M on game days. And headbands…. I was not a fan prior to having a girl. But man, she looks so stinking adorable with a headband on.
10. Having a baby makes me want to have another baby. I honestly thought the want to have another baby would disappear after having Arlie, but it really hasn’t. I still get jealous when I hear of people getting pregnant, I miss the time when she was growing in my belly. I think a lot of this has to do with the loss and those feelings afterwards never really fad altogether. I know I want more babies, but man I am terrified of actually trying to get pregnant, being pregnant, reducing my time with Arlie, etc. Life is scary sometimes, but right now it is also a ton of fun.
11. Co-sleeping/ bed-sharing has saved my life. I love the contact with Arlie. I dread the day I will have to move her into her own room. Before I had Arlie, I was pretty against bed-sharing. All I could relate it to was that scene in Away We Go, with the crazy bed-sharing hippie people. But alas, I was wrong and it turns out that it works best for us and thats what we will do until it is no longer feasible.
12. I love M, I really do. He is my best friend and such a great husband. But I love Arlie more. Granted, it is a totally different love, so I’m not sure that it really is more, but it is definitely more intense. M and I were meant to be together. We sync in a way that I did not think was possible and I am so glad that he is the father is my child(ren?). But in total honesty, Arlie has my heart completely and I would do ANYTHING for her. I did not expect this. I read about women saying this and I didn’t understand how it was possible, and even as I am writing this I feel a little weird about admitting it cause maybe that makes me a bad wife. I don’t know. I wonder if he would say the same about his love to Arlie versus his love to me….
What are some of the things that you guys realized when you because moms?